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The Transformation, Catherine Chidgey

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Yups, the password's thingie is back up again. (didn't want a particular person to see this post anyways) I'm ill, for some weird reason. Had fever yesterday morning and somehow, it escalated at night. (thanks Durga for your Panadol! lol) So, yeah. Woke up today with a SUPER croaky voice and a dizzy mind. -.- And it's the only the 1st day of the 'long vacation'. haha.

Yesterday ended with a good note. Thanks alot to you, my dear friend. The food, both your companies (er, sounds weirdly business-like? ROFL), the laughs, the jokes and all. ((: Thank you. A whole lot of 'Thank-you's.

Suddenly, just don't know how to phrase all i want to say. Then, for a few moments, I found myself just staring at the screen of my laptop, fingers hovering just a few centimetres away from the keys. Wanted to type, "I*space*m-i-s-s*space*y-o-u*space*a-l-o-t*space*a-n-d*space*i*space*d-o-n-t*space*w-h-a-t*space*t-o*space*d-o.

It just sounds pathetic. That's why i didn't type it out.

(shucks. my head's uber clogged up now. urgh. gonna see doctor in awhile) What do you want me to do, you who have made such a lasting impression in me? Why are you so keen in giving me every other reason to fall for the other person? Shucks. Here i am, trying my utter most best to stay with you. And there you are, not bothering to talk (sometimes even just a word is all i hear from you for days) and doing this.

Shoot. Why are we, humans so pathetic, willing to lose our everything (not saying everybody lar. just me in particular), just for this special Someone? Even if you are somebody famous or whatever, you can't treat people like that right? -.- urgh. Hope you ARE happy now. You've achieved your goal.

Honestly, (hope this comes out right. starting to feel dizzy) i've missed you. Like, dozen of times. Not that i still have UNDYING PASSION OF LOVE for you. But, i just missed you. Simply, just you.

Why do we have to make everything uberly complicated? ):

Just feel that whatever i say, it will stress you somehow or in some way. (i'm not thinking too much. really. it is spoken from past happenings) Haven't you noticed i've been unusually 'happy' whenever i SMS? (sheet. all of it isn't coming out right)

GAHH. Anything. Do what you deem right then.

Hahas. I just needed to let it out. Sorry, if you reading this find it weird and all. :/ i am *quote-unquote* W-E-I-R-D. And, super emo. HAHAHA. x)

Oh, and on a ending note: To you guys. If you aren't happy with what i do or anything, let me know. Cuz i've been trying to find out why we aren't talking. Yeah, silly and dumb. So, yups. If not, don't talk then. I've tried, to you-know-who-you-are. It's as plain as the black ink on a pearl white canvas. You can just feel it.

Gonna end here. Hitting the sheets for awhile, to rest my head. You guys take care: ♥

Un-emo-fy me then.