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The Transformation, Catherine Chidgey

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Yups, password's up. (FINALLY! Been forever to come up with something to use as my password. lol) Haven't had lunch, nor breakfast for that matter. Didn't go to school. Had a major headache that lasted overnight (or do they call it migraines? -.-). Didn't have the 'urge' to do anything at all the whole of today and yesterday evening. Brain-cells are depleted totally. And, yeah. Interesting huh?

Yeah yeah. Know i've been muttering and ranting bout how bad things are and all. So, i'm not gonna anymore. For now. lols.

Just had it. (agains, said this for countless number of times~ HAHAHA.) Don't wanna know what's on your mind. Don't wanna continue to waste my strength to. :/ If you don't want me, then don't. I'm never good enough for you anyways.

It's Thursday today. Caught Singapore Idol last night. Then, followed by Project Runway. (i couldn't do anything, brain was dead?) Funny how these shows are coming to an end soon. Pretty fast lar. Just hope whoever deserves to win, wins. And not due to some silly polling exercise that eliminates people. (yeah, still am sore with some people being out-ted. rofl!) But, it's kinda cool aint it? To be mobbed by fans; leave your mark on their notebooks / jotter books / posters / shirts / or anywhere else that can be signed; to perform infront of huge crowds who simply adore you. And no, i'm not despo for all these. Just saying that it's cool lar. x)

Hmmms. Whatever, gonna say what needs to be said:

Do you know you're always on my mind?

When i'm in the MRT, i think of you.
When i'm in class, i think of you.
When i feel super stressed (like yesterday), i think of you.
When i'm alone, i think of you.
When i'm with people, i think of you.
When i go to Macs, i think of you.
When i hear the songs that you like, i think of you.
When i go online, i think of you.
You you you you you you you (typed the 'you's out k. didnt use ctrl-C and ctrl-V. LOL)

So, tell me. How do you expect me to feel when you just repeatedly pick me up, make me smile; only to send me crashing down to reality soon? And if you happen to read this (which you won't) and you wanna block me or ignore me, WHATEVER. Shucks, i know i can't go through everday without you. But, i'm not THAT despo / whatever. -.-

If you aren't having anything for me (no feelings whatsoever), den don't worry. I'll walk away soon.

I know i might regret saying all this tomorrow, but these are just what i'm feeling right now. Whether or not you and i will be together (or anything, for that matter), i'll just leave it to God then.

I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me..

And, it's not easy to be Me.

Superman.